![]() It's time to change, and i hope i'll be able to do it before it's too late. I have the feeling i lost 2 years of my life. My life is crumbling down, and i'm sick of it. My parents, even though they are saying the contrary, aren't as proud as they used to be, because they don't understand why i'm doing this. My health is also getting worse, because i sleep a lot less than before to play videogames, and i skip some meals to play at videogames. I pretty much lost the few friends i had in real life, because they stopped playing videogames, while i didn't. My next exam period is in 1 week, and i'm totally not prepared. The program directors are almost ready to kick me out of the program considering how lazy i am with my studies. Last session, i failed my first exam in med school. Now, i,m watching about 50 hours of videos related to videogames on Youtube per week, and i play about 40 hours of videogames per week. It's been like this for the past 2 years. Up to the point where i watched even more Sc2 and LoL than i played. I also started watching the pro players playing my favorite videogames on Twitch and Youtube a lot. I stopped going out, and i pretty much stayed in my appartment when i didn't have school, playing videogames. Unfortunatly, the more things i had to do, the more i wanted to play videogames. It was becoming harder at school, the things to do accumulated. The more i wanted to stop, the harder it became. That's when it started to become a very big problem. I even promised myself i would stop playing videogames. I was really sad, and i tried to change things during the next session. After 2 months, i played 60 hours a week of videogames in a program where you are supposed to study 60hours/week. My friends were playing those games and i didn't have any rules to follow anymore. I like med school, but i liked videogames so much more. But, the more time passed by, the more i played videogames. but the videogames had so much more to offer, i couldn't resist. Since i couldn't bring my PS3 with me, i started looking for other videogames i could play on my cpu. For the first time, my parents weren't there, so i could pretty much play videogames as much as i wanted. Long story short, i was really happy with my life until i got to univervisty.įor the first time, i had my own appartment. Luckily, i had to follow my parents rules concerning my usage of my PS3, so i didn't spend that much time on videogames overall. So i spent pretty much all my nights playing with them until i got to university. Those guys helped me a lot with my self-confidence. ![]() I met some incredible people playing at 3rd person shooters, and i actually was able to develop my social skills. Since i couldn't make friends in real life, i started playing videogames. I wasn't able to make a lot of friends, and a lot of people used to bully me at school. Unfortunatly for me, i had one big problem. Even today, we can barely talk to each other. We never had a very good relationship because of that, because i feel he was jealous of how easily i could get such amazing grades at school. ![]() Most of the time, i felt bad for him, cause he had to work 1000 times more than me and got grades that were way worse than mine. I also had a brother who had a lot more difficulties at school. ![]() In general, with the incredible grades i had, i didn't have any problems doing that. I was very proud of them, and i always wanted to impress them. My mom was a doctor and my dad, a successfull business man. In fact, until i got to university, i pretty much always, and when i mean always, i mean always, got the best grades in my classes. ![]() When i was younger, i used to be very good at school. I've tried to stop, but i always come back to videogames like they were a stupid magnet. I play or watch more than 90 hours a week at Sc2/LoL, and it's been like that for the past 2 years. Sadly, this hides a terrible situation which i'm having more and more difficulties dealing with. It has already been 2 years since i started studying medecine and i act as a pretty self-confident guy in general. If you met me in real life, you probably wouldn't even think i'm addicted to videogames. ![]()
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